I do felt guilty since it has been seven months since I last updated this beloved blog of mine. It's all because of the "busy"ness of my life as a matriculation student back then eventhough I didn't do much of a study there. I do strongly feel that it's also because I'm morally down the moment I entered the matriculation since I'm hoping for law foundation and yet I didn't get any offer from any universities.
Why I am morally down is a very long story that even if I am about to ask William Shakespear to write it for me, he would literally ran out of idea. It is not like I hate my life there at the beautiful Kolej Matrikulas Labuan (KML), it was indeed one of the best stage of my life. Being able to live campus life in a matriculation college, with my beloved friends who I already know from my previous school and marvelous beloved new friends who I met at the college for the first time, is a life I could never imagine to be even better because it's the best.
But what worries me most about staying there is because I have to learn Science! If you read my previous posts or entries, you'll know how I hate to be studying Science and I am dying to study Law since lawyer is my ambition. Unfortunately, I didn't made it to any universities and yet I only have the offer to study at KML, so without any choice, I packed my bag, fill the forms needed, pay the fees and all of the processes needed to be done before entering the college in just one day since after knowing that I didn't get any offer to university, it's just two days left before matriculation registration.
My days there were okay since I'm in the same lecture with my beloved classmates since school and got the same class with my former roommate during SPM, so friend is not the issue. Classmates are also the best since they're very sporting towards my craziness and can adapt to my everyday routine of making hilarious nonsense joke that will always make them happy. Lecturers were also nice and I like them a lot (with the exception of the subject they're teaching since it's Science subjects) they're just like my classmates, a huge sport towards our craziness.
But, despite the huge smile on my face, making other people laugh and even my own huge laugh, nobody knows how much I cried inside to not being able to pursue my dream, which is obviously not science-related. Every single night, I would complain how I hated the subjects that I learned and I didn't want to continue studying anymore. I'm not saying science as a bad thing or what, but interest makes me cannot cooperate to study it. I also didn't think that course like law or any other social-related courses is easy, but that's my interest. Any courses in university is equal, non of them is easy, but what makes them easy is if you have interest to study them.
Now, that I am already out of the matriculation college, no longer studying science, I'm just happier than ever. I sacrificed my love of my friends, just so that I can pursue my dream for a better future. If I choose not to leave my friends, I will stay in science, I don't like science, so I may not be successful on it, not successful equals to failure, failure means a dark future. But I want the brightest future I can get, so leaving them today, so that I can pursue my dream, for a better future, so that in the years coming ahead, I'll have a better life to share with my friends, family and myself...
"If friendship is your weakest point, then you are the strongest person in the world." - Abraham Lincoln.
"Leave your friends today, if you think it's the best for your future, because if you choose the right path and have a nice future, you'll be able to share it with your beloved friends and family." - quote from me, to all... I love my friends... ;)
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